true friend, no?

how do you define being a ‘true friend’?  someone who would only say the things you wanna hear?  was she only asking for a praise? an approval? and not your honest opinion?  throughout the 20 years we’ve known each other, i’ve tried to be there for you whenever i could.  regardless of the times you’ve hurt my feelings, made me feel i’m one of your “friends of convenience”, and it’s not hard to feel not being respected by you…and the truth be told, i’m not the only one who felt that from you.  like i said, the guys you’re interested in come and go, but friends stay and as we grow older, true friends who really care don’t come by easily at all.  and have you forgotten your values when you keep allowing yourself in sitautions you shouldn’t have?  you know i had and would’ve always supported you in everything you wanted, but to get invloved with a married man even after all the talks we had, the close-call incidents you almost got yourself in deep trouble with, etc., what are you thinking?   just because i don’t approve what you’re doing in regard to this relationship of yours, doesn’t mean i stop being your friend or stop caring for you!  for you to stop talking to me after what i said, out of love because i care deeply about you, really says alot about how you treat this friendship, and me.  i’m tired this time, and i no longer wanna be the one who kept trying to keep this friendship going, always being the one who initiated keeping in touch again, etc.  you’ve hurt me deeply, but i’m here whenever you’re ready to talk again, or need a shoulder to cry on later.  take good care of yourself, dear friend.  i sincerely wish you will find your happiness and be happy instead of complaining of everything in your life, including those that you should be grateful for. take care… xoxo!